I will continuously strive to break my own walls and masks. I have social anxiety. I am always (well, NOT ALWAYS) hiding in a shell and protecting myself. Yes, I will continue to protect myself when called for. However, this is a big barrier for me. So I will try to break it sometimes. yesterday I sang karaoke at my day program. I get very nervous and self conscious about singing, and when I do perform, I get blocked by inhibition and it often doesn’t come out right. Still, I risked it, because I really wanted to sing, and I said fuck it. I didn’t feel I did my best, and I sang off key a few times. But so what. I can be me, I don’t have to be perfect.