Still Trying To Figure Out The BDSM thing If You Want To Call It That…The “Breaking” Thing…In Me…

I am still trying to figure out how the BDSM stuff comes into play for me in my life, and what my “romantic” needs are.  I would like to find someone who can break me in the way I discussed in my previous posts about breaking, well, the first two…the “what is my fascination with breaking” one is a good description of something a big part of me seems to want.  I would like to find the right person to explore things with.  I have not found him yet.  he would have to be someone I had a deep level of intimacy and trust with.