I will continuously strive to break my own walls and masks. I have social anxiety. I am always (well, NOT ALWAYS) hiding in a shell and protecting myself. Yes, I will continue to protect myself when called for. However, this is a big barrier for me. So I will try to break it sometimes. yesterday I sang karaoke at my day program. I get very nervous and self conscious about singing, and when I do perform, I get blocked by inhibition and it often doesn’t come out right. Still, I risked it, because I really wanted to sing, and I said fuck it. I didn’t feel I did my best, and I sang off key a few times. But so what. I can be me, I don’t have to be perfect.
Posts tagged ‘inhibitions’
Some people think of “breaking” and “broken” as bad things but there are some things that do need to be broken. Bad habits, a lot of inhibitions, walls, sometimes defenses, structures that cause more harm than good…self prisons…hard shells…obsolete social standards and taboos…but should people take it upon themselves to try to do this to another person? Only if there is enough trust, willingness, and caring involved…people’s boundaries and limitations need to be respected too…but in the right context it is not a bad thing, just has to be the right context