Mindfulness…let my thoughts come, go, come, float through like clouds in the sky…let them go, let them come, don’t cling to them, the important ones, they will come back, (as well as the obsessive ones lol)… I am not destroyed I still am and will be…live in the moment, what is important is not lost, I will not be destroyed
Posts tagged ‘letting go’
The OCD is part of me,it’s real, it’s there. Chronic doubts, intrusive thoughts, obsessive thoughts. But it is not ME. I am a lot more than it. I am beyond it. Right now, having the urge to remember and go over my thoughts about myself. In me I have what is real, what is beautiful and meaningful, inside (as do we all). Even though I get away from it sometimes, or worried that I don’t measure up. Have to let the ego and perfectionism go. But I am not nothing.
What am I? I am what I am.
Anyway, always looking for what’s Real. What’s Real is there, but can’t be grasped by clinging to my thoughts about what is Real and not letting go and just being in the moment. What’s important will come back. I can’t hold on to my vision constantly, it hurts to let go of my tight grasp on my thoughts but has to be done. Why is Reality always slipping from me? It is so damn FRUSTRATING.
Most people, do not understand my thought process I guess. So what. I am me, not them. As long as I have those who DO understand, I can deal with that.
I really have to accept that it is over and done. He is not open to me any more or any further breakthroughs. He said it. He is done. I have to realize he is not who I wanted him to be, and he is not wanting of what I thought I saw in him. I have to move on to being myself separately and looking to new relationships and possibilities of relationships for the connections I truly need and want. That’s all I can do. I wanted to include him but he doesn’t want to be included. God grant me the serenity to accept what I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. God help me let go and let God (you). God please help me and please help him