The lights flicker, on and off
I dance trying to keep in tune
I don’t always have control over the switch
Sometimes there is a break in the circuit
Left scrambling to hold on
Flow punctuated by empty spaces
Cracks in my tapestry
Useless worry, derailing me
To keep connection from severing
This is different than the healing space
The place I want to fall into
To renew my perception again,
Sometimes I am able to sit in myself
At home in my skin
Grounded with a secure foundation
A lake to float in
Soft, present, and soothing
Sometimes, I am here.
Sometimes I glance around me
Gaze shifting this way and that
Unable to settle down
Nothing to hold and contain me.
Waiting, for the door to open
I glance at you
You look away
I want to hold your gaze in mine
And you to hold mine in yours.
I want you to hold me down
And I want to hold myself down
Stop this endless running.
There is a place that is unbroken.