Feeling self doubts and insecurities. If I am love able and attractive to people who I have that type of attraction to or not, if they get to know me. Is it possible for someone to be romantically interested in me who I feel the same and for them to also stay interested in me. I can only be me and follow my heart and my tendencies for self expression and communication. I know I over analyze everything and some would think I am TOO open and up front about myself. But this is how it makes sense to me and feels most comfortable. I don’t like playing social games and by nature I’m a verbal person. I have a lot of contradictions in me, always trying to find balance, integration, embracing wholeness. I can be too assertive and direct, or too shy, unsure, and withdrawn. I can be too vulnerable but to some I may not seem vulnerable enough. Always, in Betweens.
Posts tagged ‘self expression’
My writing will tell my story. I want to speak out about my pain, struggles, desires, and learning process, to both be known to others, and to break walls and let people know they’re not alone.
A lot of times I am like a bouncing ball, here, there, all over the place, trying to be Real. Like in Alice in Wonderland, there are a thousand signs pointing in different directions. I find myself flitting this way and that, looking continually for the right way, for truth, for authenticity. For congruence, integration, wholeness.
i want to be both vulnerable and strong, and find the security which doesn’t exclude the broken places. I want to reach those who I am meant to connect with.