Personal Expression, Release, and Exploration of the theme of "Breaking"

Posts tagged ‘understanding’

Empowerment, And, Frustration

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The OCD is part of me,it’s real, it’s there.  Chronic doubts, intrusive thoughts, obsessive thoughts.  But it is not ME.  I am a lot more than it. I am beyond it.  Right now, having the urge to remember and go over my thoughts about myself.  In me I have what is real, what is beautiful and meaningful, inside (as do we all).  Even though I get away from it sometimes, or worried that I don’t measure up.  Have to let the ego and perfectionism go.  But I am not nothing.  

 

What am I? I am what I am.  

 

Anyway, always looking for what’s Real.  What’s Real is there, but can’t be grasped by clinging to my thoughts about what is Real and not letting go and just being in the moment.  What’s important will come back.  I can’t hold on to my vision constantly, it hurts to let go of my tight grasp on my thoughts but has to be done.  Why is Reality always slipping from me? It is so damn FRUSTRATING.  

 

Most people, do not understand my thought process I guess.  So what.  I am me, not them.  As long as I have those who DO understand, I can deal with that.

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To Be Known And Intimacy And Integralness Etc.

What I realize I want on a deep level.  To have someone really know and accept me on a deep level, light and dark, wholeness… To just be truly known, and cared for…to be understood to the extent possible, I know people can’t understand others perfectly, and certainly not at all times…to have someone engage with me on an intimate and also a sensual/ sexual level in a way that I need…lol, which I will not go into here In any detail.

Yes

Release. Opening. Understanding.  Break open.  Let it out.

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